So this has nothing to do with celibacy. I totally bombed my A&P test. It sucked and it was going to suck more because now I am gonna pay for that shit. I am pissed and disappointed ;-( It makes me sick and worse it messes up my plan! Shit! Maybe I am not meant to do this. I tried and thats all I can do. I just needed to vent. This would be a day for some good sex!