Sunday, November 20, 2011


Interestingly enough, at the beginning of my celibacy it seemed like men were coming out of the wood work. Now it seems like my options have declined. At first I was kind of bothered by this. Then I realized it is a blessing. It is exactly what I need to make it to my finish line! After all if all the people that were around before were around now I imagine this pact with myself would be harder to keep. I say this because the chances are I probably really like that person and thus I would begin to make exceptions thus leading to me breaking my pact. Now, with few if any distractions, I shall trek these last 48 days effortlessly. Wow I just realized I am within 50 days of finishing out my celibacy OMG! I am SO excited about this! I'm REALLY GOING TO MAKE IT!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

A second wind!
Yes! I made it I am at 11 months and 6 days! I almost got caught up lol but I think that GOD really wants me to make it to the finish line. I thank him everyday through this journey. A good friend that I get a lot of strength and advice from and has been celibate for 5 years asked me a very important question. She asked me were there really any guys during my 11 months that I felt they were worth giving it up to. I answered her unequivocally no. I didn't even have to think about it. That was sad to me, that at this point there aren't even really any contenders. I think that has made me see more clearly that I am definitely doing this for the right reasons. In this day and age guys won't even call for a date, they text instead ha! I have a firm belief that if you don't call me you won't be getting any from me. The thing that I have learned also was said best in a Lauryn Hill song " I thought something I wanted was something that I needed. Father you saved me! We shall see ! I am closing in on my goal and thus getting a second wind! Headed in the right direction I can see the light of day. There is no reason to be afraid!